I heard a song on the radio yesterday and it just resonated in my heart so much. There are things going on in and around my life that are of great burden to me. I hate to see so many people hurting and sad. It's really been frustrating for me to just sit back and let those who God has put in particular capacities take control of the situations because I want to be doing something to help and comfort others. After a time of just crying out in desperation to God about these hardships in mine and others lives, this song began playing on K-LOVE. It's called "I Refuse" by Josh Wilson.
This part of the song was my heart at that very moment:
To stand and watch
The weary and lost
Cry out for help.
I refuse
To turn my back
And try and act like all is well.
I refuse
To stay unchanged,
To wait another day,
To die to myself.
I refuse
To make one more excuse.
Wow. God spoke to me through these lyrics. Understandably, I am not in appropriate leadership positions to handle these problems at this point in my life, so I have to let go in the situations that are going on right now and let those that God has placed in these leadership roles take charge. However, I realized as I listened to this song that, when I am in these same leadership roles very soon (as I get into the job force), I CANNOT sit back and live like everything is going fine. I have to get out there and make a difference in other's lives. I can't wait for someone else to do it because chances are there isn't anyone else who even wants to do it. I could choose not to move, not to care, and just act like everything is hunky-dory, but I REFUSE. I must impact others lives. I must reach those in the kingdom to delve deeper into the kingdom while at the same time reach those outside the kingdom for the kingdom. People get ready, 'cause Jesus is coming...and that's a whole different blog post... :)
Do you ever feel like a song was written just for you? I sure do right now. What a great life-song.
Sometimes I,
I just want to close my eyes
And act like everyone’s alright
When I know they’re not.
This world needs God
But it’s easier to stand and watch.
I could pray a prayer and just move on
Like nothing’s wrong.
But I refuse.
‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse.
I can hear the least of these
Crying out so desperately,
And I know we are the hands and feet
Of you, oh God.
So, if you say move,
Then it’s time for me to follow through,
And do what I was made to do.
Show them who you are.
‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse.
To stand and watch
The weary and lost
Cry out for help.
I refuse
To turn my back
And try and act like all is well.
I refuse
To stay unchanged,
To wait another day,
To die to myself.
I refuse
To make one more excuse.
‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care.
I don’t want to say another empty prayer.
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself.
Oh, I could choose
Not to move but I refuse.
- Josh Wilson
