Friday, December 31, 2010

2010 in Retrospect

2010 is not the year I thought it would be…and this statement is not necessarily a bad one..but things have happened this year that have shaped my life in extraordinary ways.  There have been intense blessings this year and a few intense hurts this year.  I have laughed hard and cried hard this year.  It’s really been a roller-coaster of a year, but if it wasn’t for my Heavenly Abba and my Savior who walks with me daily, I NEVER, I repeat NEVER would have made it through. 
If I had to encapsulate 2010 in one word, it would be trust.  Trust in God, for sure, but also trust in myself and trust in others.  I will admit, this year I have seen how misplaced trust can hurt and how full-fledged trust can save your life.  It’s really been an unforgettable year.
School
School was a whirlwind this year.  In the spring semester, I had my Education methods classes...and I thought at the time those were the hardest classes I had up to that point…ha ha…looking back, I’m going to make that the fall semester J  In all honesty, my spring semester helped me immensely.  It shaped the way I student taught in the fall and, looking back, I am grateful for all we did in methods because it truly prepared me for student teaching.  I had a precious 3rd grade class and learned a lot from my cooperating teacher.  In the fall, I started student teaching.  Student teaching was the hardest thing I’ve ever done educationally & there were a couple of meltdowns here and there, but I’m writing this blog so I obviously survived!  Ha ha!  There were moments where I was convinced that I wasn’t going to make it, but God reminded me “Trust Me.  Don’t lean on your understanding.  Acknowledge Me!  I will direct your paths (and pull you through)” (Prov. 3:5-6…paraphrased)...and He did!  I remember last year asking you to pray for my placements- the students and teachers and I have to just thank you so much because God answered your prayers.  I found out at the end of spring semester that one placement would be with a 2nd grade class and the other would be with a 5th grade class.  I was placed with the most kind-hearted, loving, passionate teachers who helped me immensely.  God purposed these ladies to be my cooperating teachers because we all had things in common (for instance, I had worked with one of my teachers before and the other teacher & I shared a common love of technology) J  The 2 classes were just incredibly precious and I love and miss each child I taught.  My student teaching experience, however, helped me come to the realization that I need to professionally teach kids or help teach kids on a spiritual level.  My heart was burdened for students who didn’t grow up in a Christian home and just simply hated their life.  I felt God wanted me to work for Him in more of a ministry setting.  A lot of people say that God’s called them to ministry, and I know that God does call people at some point in their life.  I, however, feel like I was born called to the ministry.  I have been in church from the moment I was home from the hospital back in May of 1987…it is where I feel the happiest and at home.  I can’t imagine not being in ministry.  Anyways….I decided mid-way through the fall semester to look into Children’s ministry graduate programs.  I looked a bunch of different Children’s Ministry programs and decided that Liberty University’s was the one for me.  I talked about this in my last blog post, so I’m not going to go into those details again.  (If you’re interested, though, click here to read that post).  So as of Jan. 2011, I will be a graduate student at Liberty University (although, I will not move to Virginia until the fall of next year).  Like I said, school has been a whirlwind…I’ve definitely learned A LOT!  I graduated in December and it felt great to walk across that stage and get my diploma!
 College graduate with her happy parents :)

May 2010
For a month that was supposed to be the best of the whole year…my birthday month, end of school month, beginning of vacation month…it sure turned out to be the hardest, most difficult month of my entire life.  In early May, it was discovered that the financial secretary of the church (who had worked there for 50+ years) embezzled 1 million+ dollars.  This was a time of great hardship for our church and my family.  There were things that happened that I can’t talk about because of legality issues that were just difficult to hear, understand, and go through.  May 11th is my birthday and the secretary was arrested the day before.  That week…a week that was supposed to be the happiest of my year because I was turning 23…was such a valley for us all.  I cried so much that week and just did not know what was going to happen to us, but I am soooooooooooooo thankful for sweet friends who were there for me, encouraging to me, praying for my family, and just let me cry on their shoulders…your kindness will NEVER be forgotten.  Honestly, when I first heard the news, I didn’t know how our church was going to make it, but what Satan meant for evil, God meant for God and I am sooooooooo happy to report that our church has been the best it’s ever been and God, through our pastor, has carried us through our valley and is giving us mountainous opportunities to glorify His name.  Looking back, though, the saddest part of the whole experience is that someone who we placed such trust in with the church’s finances let us down.  This was a woman that I said hello to each day I was in the office, a woman who asked me how school was going, and just a sweet, kind lady who seemingly loved her job and was dedicated to it.  I don’t understand how such a sweet woman could do such a deceptive thing.  It makes me sad to look at her booking picture because I don’t want to remember her like that because for the 5 years I knew her…that wasn’t her, but unfortunately, the evidence doesn’t lie and we have to face the fact that she committed a crime and will have to suffer the consequences of that.  Pray for this situation still because it might have to go to trial in 2011, so pray for all those involved in that.  I guess my outlook on May 2010 now is don’t place your trust in material things or other people, place your trust in God…whole-heartedly and will full abandon.

Summer Opportunities
May 2010 changed the landscape of our summer.  Things we had planned to do were put on hold or all together cancelled.  It was hard, but it was necessary.  The summer of 2010, however, included some of the best parts of the whole year for me, though.
Southern Baptist Convention – Orlando, FL
For the 2nd year in a row, I had the opportunity to serve my Convention as a page.  While my entire family was supposed to go to convention this year, my parents were unable to, so Meredith and I flew by ourselves to Orlando and met up with the team of pages there.  We both got to serve on the page team.  Now, I’m not trying to sound boastful or anything, but without pages at the convention, business would be extremely slow and long.  Pages are the cross-country runners of the Southern Baptist Convention meetings because they deliver the motions and point-of-orders and all the paperwork in record time to the…well, let’s just call them “big-wigs”.  The “big wigs” look it over and make sure all the bases are covered and then all that goes to copy for all the lawyers and such to review and discuss.  Depending on the year, pages are used over and above the call of duty…it depends on the business and the location.  This year it depended on both.  Business-wise, we were voting for a new Convention president and we were also voting on a controversial Great Commission Resurgence (GCR) motion.  I’m not going to go into detail with all that, but you can look it up on Google if you’re interested.  All I know is that this topic was making the Orlando convention one of the biggest conventions in a while and over 15,000 people were expected.  Location-wise, the convention hall was one big-normous flat room.  If you remember last year, my job was “copier”…I actually ended up having this job again because I was requested by the Recording Secretary of the Southern Baptist Convention to do so.  That was a complete honor and I was so humbled that he remembered me.  I also ended up being a stage page, so I got to sit on stage with the “big-wigs” and run errands for them and meet the speakers and such.  I’ll tell you when the vote was taken on the controversial GCR topic, I will NEVER forget standing at front of the platform and seeing the sea of ballots that went up in the sky…both ways.  If you Google an image of GCR, you’ll probably see a picture similar to that.  It was the exact image I saw from where I stood.  I felt part of Convention history.  On the last day, Dr. John Yaets (Recording Secretary for the SBC) told me that he was incredibly impressed with my work ethic and asked if he could throw my name out to his convention contacts if I was one day interested in a job.  Wow.  I was kind of floored and amazed and humbled.  Dr. Yaets & his sweet wife/assistant begged me to come to Convention next year in Phoenix and I am praying that God can open the doors for me to go.

The 2010 Southern Bapitst Convention Pages

Mission Trip to Hong Kong, China
In July, I went for the 3rd time to a place that is so close to my heart…a place that is home to me and where I just love being…Hong Kong.  I will admit to you…I was really troubled about this trip before I left.  I was worried about everything…traveling by myself, money, getting lost, and just about everything else.  God showed me that I needed to place my trust in Him and He would carry me through.  It was a hard realization, but when I let go and let God…I saw some pretty incredibly things happen that made this visit the better than the last (nothing beats my first “visit”, though, because that’s when I lived there J).  I traveled with Brentwood Baptist Church in Nashville, TN to do VBS- Saddle Ridge Ranch with my International home church, Clearwater Bay International Baptist Church.  It was a complete dream-come-true to work with my close HK friends and make new ones at that.  I worked with an incredible team and we were able to see kids come to Christ.  I had the opportunity to be one of the main leaders of the 3rd & 4th grade class and led the plan of salvation to my kids.  Out of our class, we had 1 boy accept Christ and 2 others who had questions.  It was so humbling for me to plant the seeds of salvation into these students and help mature one that was ready to accept the greatest gift he’s ever received.  I also got to use my media gifts to do screens for VBS too…and ended up being a worship rally back-up (I mean literally, I was the back-up in case the real leader couldn’t do it) dancer…ha ha J  I look at the photos from my trip and am just so homesick for that time.  I miss each child and just pray that God is working in their lives and showing them His love.  I am so thankful for sweet friends who helped me when I traveled to HK by myself the first week and in order to look at some possible future job opportunities and were there at the airport to meet me and help me get settled.  I am also thankful for sweet memories with close HK friends…like eating my first bite of jellyfish and getting a free birthday cake…when it wasn’t even my birthday J HA HA!
Me & my 3rd & 4th Grade Class...Love them! :)
Church
Last year, I think I said church-work increased 1,000-fold…well I guess this year it was like 2,500-fold!  Goodness, gracious….I’ve had a BIG year church-work wise, but every moment’s been a blessing and I can’t imagine doing anything else.  Each Sunday is a blessing and I have run screens/multi-media for some pretty amazing people this year – Bro. Dean Haun, Rabbi Greg Hershberg, Dr. Richard Holden, and so many more people that I just can’t think of right now.  I view my position as one in which I help others worship God; when everything flows together and people are able to sing to the Lord with their heart by reading the words off the screen or learn new things as they have read from the screen…that is all part of how people worship God through the screens.  This is why this job is so important to me and why I value and am humbled in the position that God has placed me in.  I’ve had the opportunity to help facilitate worship for so many people which is an honor and privilege.  This year I created multi-media experiences for the Spring musical and Living Christmas Tree.  They both were great performances and I was so humbled that God had given me the inspiration for these performances.  But my most favorite experience this year happened just recently.  I had the opportunity to help coordinate on the church’s end a DVD taping at the church for a Southern Gospel recording group called Greater Vision.  It was a task that was bigger than I expected, but God gave me the help I needed for it.  I ended up getting to be on the crew because the producer wanted to utilize the screens for the recording; I got to be on a headset and hear what all was going on.  I am extremely honored to be a part of this project & CAN’T WAIT for the DVD to come out…from the shots I saw from the screen…it’s gonna be beautiful J  I am so thankful God has given me a love for media…it’s certainly something I didn’t know I was in to until I moved to Morristown, but now I can’t imagine my life without it.  I’ve also been able to use my love for teaching by getting to teach the Awana kids about missions once a month.  I’ve been able to teach them about lots of different things in unconventional teaching ways.  It’s been fun & I love watching them learn!

Working at my media post!
Work
Work has been here and there this year because of my Student Teaching schedule, but I’ve enjoyed every minute of when I have been working.  I work for a fantabulous company called Megan’s Corner Catering and More.  My boss is one of my close friends and I just love working there!  I’ve worked for Megan’s Corner for about 4 years now as a server, and last year became “Team Leader”…which I’m still not sure what I’m supposed to be doing with that title, but that’s a different story…but this year I became Webmaster!  That’s right…I designed the Megan’s Corner website.  I think it turned out great, especially considering I am not a web designer, but with the advice of others, I was able to get this turned out.  We’ve heard nice complements about it…that it is easy to follow and very helpful- comments that truly mean a lot to me.  God is truly blessing this business and I am so honored to be a part of it.  I am looking forward to the 10 year anniversary of the business in 2011.
 Me with my boss & her husband & dad (co-owners of Megan's Corner)
Prayer
Pray for me next year.  New opportunities and experiences are going to come up for me.  Pray I will make the best decision.  I will also be transitioning to new places, pray for smooth transitions.  Also, pray God will open doors for me in the summer, with the Southern Baptist Convention and also I would love to go on another mission trip if it’s God’s plan for me to do so.  All I want to do with my life is be a servant to the King and live with that servant’s heart…pray that God will give me opportunities this year to continue serving Him.  I value your prayers and your friendship.  Thank you in advance for them.
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I know this has been an extremely long blog post, and if you’re still reading, BLESS YOUR HEART! J  But really, this was good for me to sit back and write about this year and remember all of these memories and how God has seen me through it all.  I am so grateful to Him for holding me in His arms and never letting me go.  I sang a song this past July, the Sunday before I left for Hong Kong that..to me…encapsulated God’s message to me this year.... “Trust me, Allison.  I will never leave ‘your hands’”.  I share this song with you now…let it be an encouragement to you for 2011…If in 2011 your world is shaking or your heart is breaking, He will never leave your hands.

2011…You will be a year of new transitions and experiences and frankly (judging from this year) I have no idea what else you will bring, but what I do know is that God will be with me every step of the way! J


Sunday, December 26, 2010

Allison Young: Seminary Student

So, Lord-willing, I will be starting graduate online classes in January to Liberty University's Baptist Theological Seminary...yup...I'm goin' to seminary.  Never thought in a million years I'd do that.  I mean, I grew up a seminary kid, running the halls of the seminary my dad attended in Louisville, but I never thought that would be me.  God's been working on me, though, and has helped me realize this past year that He wants me working for Him...and helping others (esp. kids) grow closer to Him.

I will be pursuing a masters in Children's Ministry with the intent of one day either working for a convention entity in Children's Christian Education or in the local church in some capacity.  I will be doing online classes for the first semester and then moving to Lynchburg in the Fall to start my Children's Ministry courses (b/c they are not offered online).  Why Liberty University, you ask?  In looking at all the choices out there, and after talking with the professor in charge of the Children's Ministry program, I felt that LBTS offered the most practical/hands-on training.  Their view of Children's Ministry is so much more hands-on based than I saw at the other places I looked, so I am excited about that.  The professor told me that there have been some education undergrads come through the program before and they have added a lot to the program because of their familarity with the way children learn.  I am excited to be able to use my undergrad education degree in this capacity.  This program is a year-long program, so I will have a masters degree in about a year and will be able to get a job after that which is exciting.

I have felt such a peace about this path and I know that it only comes from God.  There have also been some encouraging people who have been so supportive about this venture..some that I didn't think would be supportive at all which is another indicator that God is in this.  When I step back and look at all the gifts that God has given me, I am just amazed at what all I have learned or am able to do.  I know that God is going to use me for a GREAT plan.  I really don't know what that is yet, but I know that whatever it is, God will be in it.  He wouldn't bring me this far and to this point.

This year has been one of learning and seeking God's guidance.  I ask that you pray for me in the coming year as I learn and grow in my education and faith.  I am excited to see where God takes me and know that He will be with me every step of the way.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." - Matthew 6:33

Monday, December 13, 2010

Countdown to Graduation!...with special thanks to the ones who got me there :)

So the countdown to graduation officially begins!  I am officially finished with student teaching (thanks to 2 snow days!!)!  There were times I didn't think I'd make it to this moment, but I did :)  (with 1 or 2 meltdowns along the way...ha ha) I am just so grateful for the One who never left my side through it all.  All He asked of me was that I trust Him and fully place my hope in Him and He'd carry me through....and He did.

If you think teaching is easy...think again!  It takes a patient, humble, and tough person to be a teacher!  The two cooperating teachers I worked with this semester are absolutely amazing teachers!  I learned so much from them and am so grateful to God for placing me in their classrooms.  They helped me grow in a way I never could have without their help...so thank you ladies!!!

Although somedays were tough, the kids in the classes were so precious.  I have to say that everyday I drove to school, I prayed for all of them...that God would bless their day and calm their spirits.  I hope that these kids have the opportunity to know God the way that I do.  I hope that I have been a blessing to them and have shown the love of Christ to them, while at the same time been an authority figure.

I am so thankful that God has placed a passion in my heart for teaching kids.  I am excited about the future in which I am going to be able to bridge together the church and teaching by going into Children's Ministry...whether it be in a church or Southern Baptist Convention entity...I know that God is going to use me to impact kids for His kingdom!

Through this whole journey this semester (and..really this summer too)...I have relied on this verse (and I have edited it just a bit)...
"Trust in Me with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Me and I will direct your paths." - Prov. 3:5-6 (paraphrased)

I will continue to rely on this verse throughout my future endeavours and I know God will lay out great things for me...things that will allow me to be a blessing to others and impact the world for Him.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

How to find the rest you need

"Come to Me all who are weary, and I will give you rest." - Matthew 11:28


I'm the type of person that needs sleep.  Without it, I cannot function.  I know some people can go a couple of days on adrenaline without sleep, but me...not so much.  This semester has been a tough one for me....I haven't known weariness like this before.  I know, this weariness is nothing compared to those of you who are parents up half the night and day with your kids and people who work hours longer than I could ever dream of; but for me, for now, it's the tiredest I've ever been.  Which is why I love this scripture so much.  Christ says if we just come to Him, in the Word, in our service, in our prayer...He will give us rest.  What a promise! 

I have definitely grown closer to Him through this semester (and as a matter of fact, year), relying and coming to Him more than I ever have in the past.  I like the song that's on the radio right now called, "If We've Ever Needed You" by Casting Crowns.  The line in it goes, "If we've ever needed You, Lord, it's now.  God it's now.  We are desperate for you hand, we're reaching out, we're reaching out."  He will be there to give us rest when we need it, and even strength to keep going, if we need that too.

I love that God provides for our needs.  He is Jehovah Jireh...My ultimate Provider.  The provider of life, blessings, joy, peace....and rest. 

If you are tired and weary, I challenge you to delve into God's Word and seek Him through prayer.  In the verse above Jesus doesn't say, "Oh, I see you are tired, I will give you rest."  He says "COME TO ME"...it is only if you come to Him that He will give you rest.  If you're a Christian, coming to Christ won't be so difficult because of the one-on-one relationship you have with Him, but if you're not a Christian, I'm sure you are thinking it's easier said than done.  Just let me tell you, a relationship with Christ is the most everlasting relationship you will ever have.  By being a follower of Christ, He gives you everlasting life...what better gift can compare to that!?  You can live in everlasting rest with the very One who promises to give that to you if you just come to Him.  Christ gave His life just for you because He loves you more than you've ever been loved.  All you have to do is admit that you're a sinner, believe that He is God's Son, and confess that Jesus is the Savior of your life.  Non-Christian, this is how you can find rest.

(P.S.  If it's strength you're looking for, turn to Isaiah 40:31...(hint: it involves trust)).

I may not be doing too much resting until after December 17th, 2010 at 2:00 pm when I graduate from college (ha ha), but God continues to give me the rest I need in the little time, right now, that I have to rest.  And I know that I can count on God to provide the strength I need until that time.

Thank you God for always being there and providing me with the strength and rest I need when I need it. :)

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Using your gifts to serve God

So this is it. First blog post...I've often wondered about starting one of these, I mean, why would someone want to read my ramblings?...And yes, I probably will ramble! But I got to thinking...with the struggles I've gone through this year and the blessings I've experienced, and all that God's taught me from these trials, blessings, and adventures...I can be a blessing to others through the insights I've gained throughout the year.

I call this blog, Living with a Servant Heart because that is my life-long goal. We should all have goals...to be good students, parents, leaders...and I believe, full-on, whole-hearted servants for our King. He has blessed us with a gift (or maybe even gifts) and expects us to use them. Come on, admit it, when you open a gift on Christmas morning that you've been waiting all year for, you're not going to not use it! No, you're going to use it and cherish it and the one who gave it to you. Why are the gifts that God has given you any different? We should use what He has given us and cherish Him who has given it/them to us.

God's for sure blessed me with some amazing gifts of singing, using computers, teaching others (esp. kids). I cherish them every day and thank Him every day for giving them to me. Sometimes, I'm overwhealmed by what all God's given me. I feel as though I should use each and every gift God's given me all the time and feel discouraged when I am not able to because of time or energy, but my dad gave me some good advice a few weeks ago, he said, "Allison, God's given us gifts to use at different points in our life. We may not be able to use all of them at one time, but we know that we will be able to use them in the future." That really reasonated with me and I believe was a word from the Lord himself, through my dad saying, "Allison, calm down...breathe. I know your heart. I have given you these gifts. Don't worry, you'll use them for me..in time."

My dear, dear Rabbi friend Greg Hershberg (well, he's the only Rabbi I know actually) said this a little over a month ago, "Don't serve God out of obligation, but desperation." This statement drove home the point of servant-hood to me. I serve God not because I feel as though I have to because of what He's done for me, but I serve God because I am desperate to do anything and everything for Him BECAUSE of what He's done for me!

I know God's given you a gift. It could be the gift of encouragement, singing, technology, art, teaching, driving, and the list goes on and on. You know you have it and you know you're good at it. Don't set it by the wayside and say, "Oh, I don't have time for it." "There are other people better at these things than me." "I'll do it later." God gave you the ultimate, greatest gift ever - eternal life through His Son Jesus. Aren't you desperate to give back to Him? Using your gift for Him is a sure-fire way to do so! And in the process, you will be showing the love of Christ to others and become a blessing to others in the process. Being a blessing will inspire others to serve God too. It'll be a chain reaction! :)

My parents had us watch "Psalty the Singing Songbook" videos on Sunday morning and I'll never forget this one song on one of the videos that has still stayed with me even to this day. The little girl stood there with a flower in her hand and sang to God, singing, "Make me a servant, humble and meek; Lord, let me lift up those who are weak. And may the prayer of my heart always be, make me a servant. Make me a servant. Make me a servant, today." I have made that my life's prayer and song from that moment I first heard that song on the video. Make that you're servant-song too.

"And may the prayer of my heart always be....Make me a servant. Make me a servant. Make me a servant, today."

Well, hopefully I didn't ramble too much! I just wanted to share my heart. I hope that I can share more with you in the future. Pray for me as I continue to walk this journey with the Lord, that I follow His ways and His will. I just want to serve Him...for the rest of my life.